I got nothin'

Seriously, I need one more day to my weekend please.

I've given up on my comforter set. it just doesn't exist in any Target anywhere. *pouts*
I did buy a pillow, onsale at Target and I like it but it needs to be slept on for a few days. I like it tho, it's firm, and it has a cool synthetic cover on it, and no feathers. That's going to be nice. So now I'm going to troll about looking for another set. There IS a comforter I like at Target, but only kinda, and I'm wanting for that price a few more things. I like the idea of this one but I'm being inherantly cheapo. If I'm going to spend money it's going to be on Egyptian cotton. I don't like flannel. In fact I LOATHE flannel. So I won't need to even be looking there. *shudder* Flannel makes me itch just thinking about it. I'd also like a couple of jewel toned sheets, something in a deep and light purple, and/or green. This is why I need to be very grounded about the comforter color. I don't like loud prints.

I really need to get cracking on getting stuff up to sell. I really don't want them in the way. Plus I wanted some expensive things at Torrid. OK One expensive thing. I'm going to watch it on the website. Maybe it'll get closer to the price I'd like to pay, which is what is on the gift cards I have. I saw lots of cute things, all for KA, I'm wondering when Torrid when rockabilly. And they changed the sign to the cute sign, instead of the bold TORRID I loved. I'm very pouty. Very Pouty. Although lots of the stuff is still cute, it's not the bold goth effect I wanted. I just can't wear crap with big ass flowers on it, I don't care if it's purple or not. I was going to buy a top, but really wanted this pinstripe dress instead, so I put it back to save the cards.

I'm yawning but don't want to go to bed. I probably will, only to get up late and feel stupid.

I'd like to ask two questions:

- If you have 80 million boyfriends, and "everyone" thinks you're cute, WHY is it when someone pays attention to, oh, say, me, you get all pouty? This isn't directed towards anyone, but it's a theme, one I saw repeatedly, for the past couple of weeks. I may be a "big" girl, but I'm NOT rolling over and playing dead because YOU think you're cuter than I am, ms. Stick figure with a low self esteem. A certain ex girlfriend of a friend of mine has this problem, and it's the reason I won't deal with her anymore. I mean DAMN, not everyone has to be lusting after you! Don't expect any quarter - I'm used to getting what I want, and while I don't want someone who'd rather have some cute little girl than me, sometimes I actually KNOW the score! get your ass to the back of the line.

and

- why is it that everyone ELSE gets to believe in their own personal fairy tale, but not me? I might just be shutting down, and only holding out this particular hand to certain people. You know, I hate reality, and fight it pretty hard, but I Think i'm going to carry this one with me. I KNOW I'm in for a world of hurt, but maybe JUST EFFING MAYBE, I MIGHT have the happy ending. I know we're all not used to this - get over it.

Yeah, I'm done, I'm going to try and go to bed. Maybe I'll watch some InuYasha before sleep. I want some more soda, which won't have the effect coffee does. I really want something breakfast related tomorrow. I fear my milk is bad tho. *sighs*

Ugh

This whole sleep thing is highly overrated.
I canNOT sleep until late. I've gone to bed and laid awake, or staring at the TV.
Last night has been the worst.
I got caught up on something on PBS. A wild horse documentary.
4AM I shut things off.
I know I laid awake til 4:30, my mind wouldn't be silent.
at 7:30, my open window brought in loud noise from the street. They put up signs about work on Friday and no parking and all that. I think they might be digging up the street in front of the house. Or at least it sounded like it. So I get up and close the window.
My alarm goes off at 8:30, and 8:40. My TV comes on at 8:30 as well.
I drifted, unable to come awake enough until 11AM.

Since then I have billed clients, read LJ, and replied to a CB email.
I need to get to my day client so I can get to my night client. I also need to pay bills, but that'll happen when I get home. I will have money to pay ALL my bills, and maybe my bank will allow me into my own account. *grumble*

But I'd rather sit here in my underwear and feel sorry for myself. Plus I'm hungry.
I'm going.
Someone come over here and drag my sorry butt out of bed every morning at 6:30? I need to get onto a day schedule, so my tax season schedule works. Although I don't even know if I have a second CPA job. I haven't heard from him all summer. I'm adding that to my list for tomorrow - Call CPA #2 about the season, and maybe some more after school evening work.

The Price of my Lack of Vision

Dragging my heels today has cost me my paycheck.
Well not permanently.
There's noone here to sign checks, so I can't get paid today. The problem with being the contractor is that you have to wait for the invoice to be processed, and the check cut and signed. Well, two of those three steps are mine, but not the signature.
The bossman will not be back today. So I have to wait til my next day in to get my check.
Which will be Friday.
Ok, this is NOT a major deal, actually.
I'm getting a small check tonight. A small one on Wednesday.
I have enough in the account to pay the bills that need paying. Plus a little extra for ManRay and some food. Maybe even a drinkie on Wednesday too.
I just wanted to get a leg up on this month - by sending out all my bills now, so I hhave to deal with the rest when it comes. Yes I can still do this on Friday, or at least prepare myself for Friday. This also gives me a chance to rethink how much I've billed them (Although I think I'm cutting the check today so that if the boss doesn't come in on Friday I have the check waiting.)

*sighs* I had a feeling I didn't need to come in at all. But I did. I have work to do, and, bonus, I'm alone for the moment. it's nice and quiet (except I just discovered the computer has built in speakers, so I'm going to stream some music) and I can just work without being distracted.

Blows about my check tho. oh well.