Weirdness last night

After finally getting rid of the Unit, I made off for money and food.. Then I had to get ready and go get KA for curses_boston I dunno whether it's the pills, or the overload of social activity, AND the lack of attention from one corner, but by the time I left I was punchy. I didn't want anything that was difficult, I was having trouble multitasking. Two annoying older guys who tried to hit on us OVER the conversation I was having with elvendoll made me SNAP. And then, when I finally stopped for something at 7-11, the morons in the car next to me, who think I don't HEAR them making fun of me got called drunken assholes. I looked right at them, and smirked at them, and MAN were they pissed. It ALWAYS makes normals angry when you fight back, they never think you're going to. It gives you the emotional edge, and takes away any power they might have in the situation. the only problem with THIS is that I'm mouthing off to large groups without backup. I could, in theory, have my ass handed to me. Well not last night, since they were, in fact, drunken assholes. The silly blonde in the back seat had the SAME SANDWICH I had, but yet felt the need to comment on ME having it. I mean, when you're a blonde, slutty drunken stick figure you really have nothing of value to add to anything. Unless you're taking your clothes off, and pole tancing With TALENT, and not just rubbing your butt up and down on it, like you have a rash.

*ahem*

Anyway, so I was punchy. I was having tooth pain, and the resulting headache, I was definitely in no mood to deal with anyone. People just suck, and I don't want to have that attitude with my friends, so I'm very glad I went home.

I had strange dreams last night, and I never remember them so I don't know what's up with this. I'm pretty sure these pills are playing havoc with my usual balance of things. But this was very strange. I haven't heard from my friend Abby in ages. She had moved to Warwick RI, with her husband, and then told me "I might be moving and getting divorced" and then I tried to call and got answering machine messages about subletting, then it being filled, then the number being shut off. I was pretty sure she was back in the area. Just from what I'd seen on a website or two, and my own feelings about it. Then that was confirmed by Jayson, who'd seen her recently, pregnant. Which BLOWS my fecking mind. But anyway. For some reason I was picking up something after coming back from England on business (tell me that's not Freudian! How much do I want to go back to England, eh?) and I passed her on a country road, walking - somewhere. I stopped and picked her up. I thnk I took her to her mother's house. She informed me that she didn't see me because her friend (who's name escapes me) who was her Maid of Honor (Or Pain in the Ass of Honor, she was AWFUL, and pissed it wasn't HER getting married. She should have chosen me) had told her she resented having me around, and refused to let Ab see me anymore. And for some reason she'd gone along with this, and she was sorry. it's weird, I get the feeling I was ACTUALLy talking to her, and I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't contact me soon. I know where to find her, but it's been a while, and I keep thinking I should, but then thinking "*shrugs* Why bother?" She's cut me out, and she does this on occasion. But this time it's strange, like I don't fit into her life anymore. And I don't think I was all that far off when it comes to the Bitch of Honor. I think she went away in the Fall of 2001. That's a long time without contact, especially since she KNOWS where I am. She knows where my mother lives, she knows I go to ManRay, at LEAST I'm sure Jayson has said he's seen me.

So if for some reason she's reading this, you can go ahead and call. There's a pager function on my user page. There's email address and AIMs on my user page. It's typical of you, I'm unsurprised and expect it. I'm not mad, but I also am not going to fit you back into my life like a puzzle piece. *shrugs* I expect nothing to come of this, but I also will be unsurprised if something does.

I think I remember the dream since I woke up in half of it. I was half awake for some of it. And while it's 12:30 now, I've been up for a while. I need to get dressed and go do those errands I didn't get to yesterday. Then I need to come home and do some cleaning, and I think I'm sending out all my unwanted CDs and Tapes that I can sell to Second Spin, or at least getting them ready to go. I would LOVE to have enough time to put some things into my car and get them OUT of my room, but it's hot and nasty in here. I'm also feeling the need to go get some burritos. From Trader Joe's. I fear spending money, but I should be getting two nice paychecks tomorrow, enough to pay bills, and if I buy food, I'll be all set for the week.

Man I'm rambling, and I need to see if this needs an LJ cut. And I'd like to get out of here before SHE shows up.