I swear they're trying to kill me
Jan. 9th, 2004 12:08 amAll my clients. Death by work.
Here's the issue (for today) - I overslept. By almost 4 hours. My alarms went off between 8:30 and 8:45. I remember turning the TV down, I remember changing the channel, I remember snippets of things. Then the phone rings at 11:50. One of my clients. Wanting to know what I did with *x-paper-that I never saw*. Since I never saw it, I gave him some idea of where he'd put things before I came in, and then told him it might be in a place he hadn't looked. Even tho I know it's not there. *shrug* Made him feel better.
Anyway, so I wake up late, and not wanting to go to work. I've missed lunch with management, and it's getting later the longer I sit. I get myself to the office, and proceed to run around. A lot. The big boss sits me down and gives me one last chance to take him up on his job offer, before he makes an offer to one of the candidates. I tell him a firm no. he thinks I'm dumb *grins* He thinks I'm not looking beyond the tax season, and what will I do after that? Hel-LO - I'd have offers up the WAZOO if I wasn't working all the time! I have two new clients pending if I could find the time, and I've never advertised. Believe me, I have no fear of not working. I fear working, to death. Seriously. I need a break, where I don't do ANYTHING. My car is paid for, it's going to get me through a while longer, I can put things off if I need to. I'm going to save money and take me a nice vacation, and then I'm going to clean out and get rid of things. I think I should devote an hour a week to Ebaying. I have plenty of stuff in my room to get rid of, then I can start on the storage units.
Anyway, I spent the rest of the day trying to get my boss booked on a flight to a conference next week. Seems the secretary before she left didn't finish making the rearrangement. Which I find disturbingly odd. Of course the VP is all set - him and his family. Personally, I would think that that the VP should be more concerned about his boss looking good. He has a different hotel, he has a different CRAPPY flight. I should have booked him first class. *grumble* Anyway, this is NOT my job, and noone is looking out for the president, and I think that sucks. I pinged an email off to the former secretary asking for some help. She kinda moved, to Scotland. So it's not like she won't be willing.
To top it off, I got pretty much nothing productive done today, and, instead of either going to a party in NYC, or sitting on my ass at home, I get to go to work. I'm thinking of pulling the all-nighter I've been thinking about on Friday/Saturday. I've got to reset my hours, get to bed by 12, or 2 at the latest (for Wednesday nights) When I go to the club, I have to come home and go right to bed. No sitting up watching TV and checking emails and stuff. I'm hoping what will happen Saturday is that I'll get stuff done, maybe get some cleaning done while I'm at it, then go in early to the office, like 8AM or so. Get my work done, leave by noon or 1, and head to my storage units, and do some cleaning there too. I need to get some things out of the way here, so I can live through tax season without tripping over things. Then, hopefully, by 8 or 9 on Saturday I'll be wiped and I'll go to bed, and I'm setting an alarm for Sunday. That way I get plenty of rest and still get up early.
I'm hoping doing this will help me be a bit less bitchy. I'm resentful I'm losing out on going to NYC, even tho I probably wasn't going due to my mood and tiredness level. This totally takes the decision out of my hands. And, even tho I'm trying to setup my sleep habits, I want to blow it out of the water with a trip to Haven next week. And what sucks is that I'm having issues doing THAT too. there's a client I need to see, and only have time to do it Wednesday. Which was the day I wanted off to rest after Haven. I think what I'm going to do is rent a room, and go right to bed after the club. Then I can drive back to Boston/Cambridge the next morning and go right to my client. I was going to ask Ben to take a day off, but I don't think he would anyway. I have to talk to him, if he's willing to hang out I'll get the room. if he can't I'll either drive right home, and sleep a bit longer, or maybe ask for a favor from a friend. I'll see what works out (mental note, make that phone call, please) I almost don't WANT to go, since it's some sort of costume ball thing, but it's become clear to me I won't have the TIME to go, even the following week.
*sighs* I hate this. All I wanted was some rest. This is like my "week off" where I worked more than rested. I'm about to disappear from some people's radar, and I've already dropped off most of them. I'm none too happy about being totally alone here. And I don't have the energy to baby anyone - and some of my relationships need some TLC to be back up to par. And I have NO IDEA where I'm getting the energy from. *sighs*
OK, I'm going to start packing it in. InuYasha's on and I want to be in bed when it's done. This is the pattern I'm choosing - 12:30 is my bedtime. I swear.
More later, when I can wrap my brain around it.
(did I mention I have a project I wanted to do tonight? Looks like Saturday or Sunday it is. *sighs* Why Can't I not work just ONCE?)
Here's the issue (for today) - I overslept. By almost 4 hours. My alarms went off between 8:30 and 8:45. I remember turning the TV down, I remember changing the channel, I remember snippets of things. Then the phone rings at 11:50. One of my clients. Wanting to know what I did with *x-paper-that I never saw*. Since I never saw it, I gave him some idea of where he'd put things before I came in, and then told him it might be in a place he hadn't looked. Even tho I know it's not there. *shrug* Made him feel better.
Anyway, so I wake up late, and not wanting to go to work. I've missed lunch with management, and it's getting later the longer I sit. I get myself to the office, and proceed to run around. A lot. The big boss sits me down and gives me one last chance to take him up on his job offer, before he makes an offer to one of the candidates. I tell him a firm no. he thinks I'm dumb *grins* He thinks I'm not looking beyond the tax season, and what will I do after that? Hel-LO - I'd have offers up the WAZOO if I wasn't working all the time! I have two new clients pending if I could find the time, and I've never advertised. Believe me, I have no fear of not working. I fear working, to death. Seriously. I need a break, where I don't do ANYTHING. My car is paid for, it's going to get me through a while longer, I can put things off if I need to. I'm going to save money and take me a nice vacation, and then I'm going to clean out and get rid of things. I think I should devote an hour a week to Ebaying. I have plenty of stuff in my room to get rid of, then I can start on the storage units.
Anyway, I spent the rest of the day trying to get my boss booked on a flight to a conference next week. Seems the secretary before she left didn't finish making the rearrangement. Which I find disturbingly odd. Of course the VP is all set - him and his family. Personally, I would think that that the VP should be more concerned about his boss looking good. He has a different hotel, he has a different CRAPPY flight. I should have booked him first class. *grumble* Anyway, this is NOT my job, and noone is looking out for the president, and I think that sucks. I pinged an email off to the former secretary asking for some help. She kinda moved, to Scotland. So it's not like she won't be willing.
To top it off, I got pretty much nothing productive done today, and, instead of either going to a party in NYC, or sitting on my ass at home, I get to go to work. I'm thinking of pulling the all-nighter I've been thinking about on Friday/Saturday. I've got to reset my hours, get to bed by 12, or 2 at the latest (for Wednesday nights) When I go to the club, I have to come home and go right to bed. No sitting up watching TV and checking emails and stuff. I'm hoping what will happen Saturday is that I'll get stuff done, maybe get some cleaning done while I'm at it, then go in early to the office, like 8AM or so. Get my work done, leave by noon or 1, and head to my storage units, and do some cleaning there too. I need to get some things out of the way here, so I can live through tax season without tripping over things. Then, hopefully, by 8 or 9 on Saturday I'll be wiped and I'll go to bed, and I'm setting an alarm for Sunday. That way I get plenty of rest and still get up early.
I'm hoping doing this will help me be a bit less bitchy. I'm resentful I'm losing out on going to NYC, even tho I probably wasn't going due to my mood and tiredness level. This totally takes the decision out of my hands. And, even tho I'm trying to setup my sleep habits, I want to blow it out of the water with a trip to Haven next week. And what sucks is that I'm having issues doing THAT too. there's a client I need to see, and only have time to do it Wednesday. Which was the day I wanted off to rest after Haven. I think what I'm going to do is rent a room, and go right to bed after the club. Then I can drive back to Boston/Cambridge the next morning and go right to my client. I was going to ask Ben to take a day off, but I don't think he would anyway. I have to talk to him, if he's willing to hang out I'll get the room. if he can't I'll either drive right home, and sleep a bit longer, or maybe ask for a favor from a friend. I'll see what works out (mental note, make that phone call, please) I almost don't WANT to go, since it's some sort of costume ball thing, but it's become clear to me I won't have the TIME to go, even the following week.
*sighs* I hate this. All I wanted was some rest. This is like my "week off" where I worked more than rested. I'm about to disappear from some people's radar, and I've already dropped off most of them. I'm none too happy about being totally alone here. And I don't have the energy to baby anyone - and some of my relationships need some TLC to be back up to par. And I have NO IDEA where I'm getting the energy from. *sighs*
OK, I'm going to start packing it in. InuYasha's on and I want to be in bed when it's done. This is the pattern I'm choosing - 12:30 is my bedtime. I swear.
More later, when I can wrap my brain around it.
(did I mention I have a project I wanted to do tonight? Looks like Saturday or Sunday it is. *sighs* Why Can't I not work just ONCE?)