I swear they're trying to kill me

All my clients. Death by work.

Here's the issue (for today) - I overslept. By almost 4 hours. My alarms went off between 8:30 and 8:45. I remember turning the TV down, I remember changing the channel, I remember snippets of things. Then the phone rings at 11:50. One of my clients. Wanting to know what I did with *x-paper-that I never saw*. Since I never saw it, I gave him some idea of where he'd put things before I came in, and then told him it might be in a place he hadn't looked. Even tho I know it's not there. *shrug* Made him feel better.

Anyway, so I wake up late, and not wanting to go to work. I've missed lunch with management, and it's getting later the longer I sit. I get myself to the office, and proceed to run around. A lot. The big boss sits me down and gives me one last chance to take him up on his job offer, before he makes an offer to one of the candidates. I tell him a firm no. he thinks I'm dumb *grins* He thinks I'm not looking beyond the tax season, and what will I do after that? Hel-LO - I'd have offers up the WAZOO if I wasn't working all the time! I have two new clients pending if I could find the time, and I've never advertised. Believe me, I have no fear of not working. I fear working, to death. Seriously. I need a break, where I don't do ANYTHING. My car is paid for, it's going to get me through a while longer, I can put things off if I need to. I'm going to save money and take me a nice vacation, and then I'm going to clean out and get rid of things. I think I should devote an hour a week to Ebaying. I have plenty of stuff in my room to get rid of, then I can start on the storage units.

Anyway, I spent the rest of the day trying to get my boss booked on a flight to a conference next week. Seems the secretary before she left didn't finish making the rearrangement. Which I find disturbingly odd. Of course the VP is all set - him and his family. Personally, I would think that that the VP should be more concerned about his boss looking good. He has a different hotel, he has a different CRAPPY flight. I should have booked him first class. *grumble* Anyway, this is NOT my job, and noone is looking out for the president, and I think that sucks. I pinged an email off to the former secretary asking for some help. She kinda moved, to Scotland. So it's not like she won't be willing.

To top it off, I got pretty much nothing productive done today, and, instead of either going to a party in NYC, or sitting on my ass at home, I get to go to work. I'm thinking of pulling the all-nighter I've been thinking about on Friday/Saturday. I've got to reset my hours, get to bed by 12, or 2 at the latest (for Wednesday nights) When I go to the club, I have to come home and go right to bed. No sitting up watching TV and checking emails and stuff. I'm hoping what will happen Saturday is that I'll get stuff done, maybe get some cleaning done while I'm at it, then go in early to the office, like 8AM or so. Get my work done, leave by noon or 1, and head to my storage units, and do some cleaning there too. I need to get some things out of the way here, so I can live through tax season without tripping over things. Then, hopefully, by 8 or 9 on Saturday I'll be wiped and I'll go to bed, and I'm setting an alarm for Sunday. That way I get plenty of rest and still get up early.

I'm hoping doing this will help me be a bit less bitchy. I'm resentful I'm losing out on going to NYC, even tho I probably wasn't going due to my mood and tiredness level. This totally takes the decision out of my hands. And, even tho I'm trying to setup my sleep habits, I want to blow it out of the water with a trip to Haven next week. And what sucks is that I'm having issues doing THAT too. there's a client I need to see, and only have time to do it Wednesday. Which was the day I wanted off to rest after Haven. I think what I'm going to do is rent a room, and go right to bed after the club. Then I can drive back to Boston/Cambridge the next morning and go right to my client. I was going to ask Ben to take a day off, but I don't think he would anyway. I have to talk to him, if he's willing to hang out I'll get the room. if he can't I'll either drive right home, and sleep a bit longer, or maybe ask for a favor from a friend. I'll see what works out (mental note, make that phone call, please) I almost don't WANT to go, since it's some sort of costume ball thing, but it's become clear to me I won't have the TIME to go, even the following week.

*sighs* I hate this. All I wanted was some rest. This is like my "week off" where I worked more than rested. I'm about to disappear from some people's radar, and I've already dropped off most of them. I'm none too happy about being totally alone here. And I don't have the energy to baby anyone - and some of my relationships need some TLC to be back up to par. And I have NO IDEA where I'm getting the energy from. *sighs*

OK, I'm going to start packing it in. InuYasha's on and I want to be in bed when it's done. This is the pattern I'm choosing - 12:30 is my bedtime. I swear.

More later, when I can wrap my brain around it.
(did I mention I have a project I wanted to do tonight? Looks like Saturday or Sunday it is. *sighs* Why Can't I not work just ONCE?)

Just a reminder

to my oversleeping ass

We have a hair cut scheduled for tomorrow. Do you want to live with things this shaggy? You'd better get your ASS out of bed and get to the appointment or else we're NOT finding time to dye hair over the weekend, and those nice silver things will come BACK! We don't want that, now, do we?

Hmmmm, short hair. It's gotten to the point of me being highly dissatisfied. I got it cut before going to England, and was happy with it almost all the way into December. I started feeling "I need a haircut" around Xmas. This is good, since I'll schedule one on a Tuesday in early March, then another after the end of the season.

I want to get there early, so I ned to get to bed. Dammit!

well

I really should learn to listen to the signs.

Today's horoscope: "There is a conservative feeling to the day, Tiamatlady, that is asking you to get serious and take care of business. This may not be such a bad idea. Believe it or not, this grounded atmosphere can help you move into a deeper relationship with someone special. Let your creative nature shine through, and try to do more listening than talking. Make your dreams a reality."

I went to get a haircut (despite being up well past three. *sighs* I got away from the computer, and curled up in bed, but still had to take my contacts out, and basically laid there like a lump, then couldn't sleep. *sighs*) made it on time to the appointment.

This is the salon run by the single mom, who wants to do this hair thing as her success story. I meant to give her a business card months ago, but I didn't want to butt in. Today she starts asking me questions, after the quick "So you do what again?" She pulls out a couple of things to show me, she was basically freaking out about some small items that the IRS sends out as a courtesy.

Now, there's this discussion on the CorpGoth list about accountants and doing your own books in general, that someone has said "Bullshit, YOU can do your own, you don't need to pay an overpriced accountant, what are you people, stupid?" (OK not what was said - how I interpreted it. You can see why I'm not responding to this thread. My instinct is to bitchslap the person.) And then talking to Kristin today makes me very frightened for people who do their own thing, with that kind of attitude.

See - she said to me "I don't want to DEAL with this - I just want to do my work." It's not that she doesn't want to understand, she just doesn't want to work all day then do her books all night.

THIS is what I want. THIS is the client I want - someone who wants to do what they work hard to do, and let me take care of the bookkeeping details. I love being the accounting tool (not a TOOL per se *grins* more like software tool) of a successful business. I want this woman to feel that things are getting handled, and she can do what she loves and is good at, and not worry about the things that keep her up at night.

I can be of use, and be needed. THIS is what I want to do. Turning down the job offer was the best choice. Once I get out of tax season, and rest some, I'm going to start trolling for clients. It's time I took charge of my life, and career, and stopped waiting on other people to tell me I'm "all set."

Ok, in that vein I have to get to work. I SO don't want to go now. I want to stay home and put my feet up. But I'm going to go, and get a car wash along the way, my poor car is a different color from all the grime on it.

Oh, and the all nighter - so off. I'm exhausted right now. I can't fathom trying to stay up and work tomorrow. Maybe Saturday night/Sunday.