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FINALLY finished the last return, but delayed delivering it in favor of lounging and a nap. And kicking my bosses server, cause it was sucking.
It was all worthwhile though, leading to a party at Steve's (Industrial Steve, no LJ, rooms with Dominick, also no LJ) D and I brought alcohol, and she started drinking pretty heavily, after the week she had at work, I don't blame her one bit. I had a couple of Smirnoff Ice's, which are light enough to not effect me much. And we had a blast. Well she had a blast, I had a slightly less blast of a time, due to the lack of alcohol and the heat. I got to finally talk to La and Skaven, whom I had wanted to hang out with and kept losing the time to. As well as him, whom had almost vanished off the face of the earth, naughty monkey. Laura had a lot of fun, and a lot of attention, which she, and I needed. Ran into some weirdness, at, of course 2 or 3 AM. Besides Chris A, who was the moron who kept saying "Why do you hate me?" (La, believe me, I know you usually roll your eyes when I get like I did then, but I have good reason with that one, he is the definition of "Stupid guy"), there was Angelica. She was with Chris and some other guy I didn't know, but SHE I know kinda well. She used to date within my old group of friend, specifically she dated Michael. Mike and I used to be tight, and part of his self destruction process involved her. D and I used to call her the "dumb fairy slut", because, well, she WAS. She was a stoner, and a dumb ass and I did NOT see what Mike had seen in her at all. Part of his destruction involved dumping her, how he did it, and subsequent actions by his friends that had bad effects on her.
She's a lot more "there" than I remember, with good reason. Those people put her through hell, and she came out, much like I did, a bit more scarred than I. I still have to get that book she recommended, um this one. She said she though of me the whole way through it.
Funny, I didn't see myself having such an impact on her. She used to worry I didn't like her, and I guess I didn't. I mean, Mike meant the world to me, and having to share him with the likes of her grated. I guess to be more accurate, I found it hard to respect her. And like and respect are pretty close, for me. If I can't respect you, I find it very hard to progress beyond. And I'm VERY good at finding SOMETHING to respect about someone. When I lose that, or if I never had it at all, you don't stand a chance.
Angelica represents something rare, a change in attitude on my part. I respect her more, not completely but more. I can't say I'd want to see her much, as she still has some of the old habits I _really_ hated. But I think I could have lunch with her, and that's a big change. And she earned it, she didn't demand, or tell me what I HAD to do, she simply was, and is better for it.
I got home at _5:30_ in the morning. Never again thought I. Til .......
It was all worthwhile though, leading to a party at Steve's (Industrial Steve, no LJ, rooms with Dominick, also no LJ) D and I brought alcohol, and she started drinking pretty heavily, after the week she had at work, I don't blame her one bit. I had a couple of Smirnoff Ice's, which are light enough to not effect me much. And we had a blast. Well she had a blast, I had a slightly less blast of a time, due to the lack of alcohol and the heat. I got to finally talk to La and Skaven, whom I had wanted to hang out with and kept losing the time to. As well as him, whom had almost vanished off the face of the earth, naughty monkey. Laura had a lot of fun, and a lot of attention, which she, and I needed. Ran into some weirdness, at, of course 2 or 3 AM. Besides Chris A, who was the moron who kept saying "Why do you hate me?" (La, believe me, I know you usually roll your eyes when I get like I did then, but I have good reason with that one, he is the definition of "Stupid guy"), there was Angelica. She was with Chris and some other guy I didn't know, but SHE I know kinda well. She used to date within my old group of friend, specifically she dated Michael. Mike and I used to be tight, and part of his self destruction process involved her. D and I used to call her the "dumb fairy slut", because, well, she WAS. She was a stoner, and a dumb ass and I did NOT see what Mike had seen in her at all. Part of his destruction involved dumping her, how he did it, and subsequent actions by his friends that had bad effects on her.
She's a lot more "there" than I remember, with good reason. Those people put her through hell, and she came out, much like I did, a bit more scarred than I. I still have to get that book she recommended, um this one. She said she though of me the whole way through it.
Funny, I didn't see myself having such an impact on her. She used to worry I didn't like her, and I guess I didn't. I mean, Mike meant the world to me, and having to share him with the likes of her grated. I guess to be more accurate, I found it hard to respect her. And like and respect are pretty close, for me. If I can't respect you, I find it very hard to progress beyond. And I'm VERY good at finding SOMETHING to respect about someone. When I lose that, or if I never had it at all, you don't stand a chance.
Angelica represents something rare, a change in attitude on my part. I respect her more, not completely but more. I can't say I'd want to see her much, as she still has some of the old habits I _really_ hated. But I think I could have lunch with her, and that's a big change. And she earned it, she didn't demand, or tell me what I HAD to do, she simply was, and is better for it.
I got home at _5:30_ in the morning. Never again thought I. Til .......
