Why is my

ear blocked up now?
*sigh*
I actually have nothing to say. Well a few things rattling about. I dunno if I want to put them out. but, as usual....

Um, if you have to profess how much you're OVER it, you're not over it.
This applies to a LOT of LJ's I've read recently.
But it doesn't negate the truth.
I think some of my strength lies in the fact that I Accept that I'm not over things. Ok perhaps I hash too much, perhaps I obsess. But I sleep well, I don't brood constantly, and I don't let anyone drive me out of my house/seat/self just because THEY think I don't belong.
Every day I don't kick a former friend in the head, is a victory.
Every time someone small has to pointedly ignore me, I can accept that I am doing the same, and find it easier to tolerate.. I ignore. You don't exist. Period. My choice. The control gives it the extra zing that it takes to deal with it.
I am not weak, by living with my weak points. It makes me strong, and better adjusted.
I am, however, not adult enough to NOT say, better than YOU.
*giggle*

I am also reminded why MY decision has ALWAYS been, closed invite list. If you don't get invited, although perhaps I forgot, chances are I don't want your ass in MY house. Nuff said. I have not had any parties to date, and the way things are going, I don't think I ever want to. I'd like a grrls slumber party tho, with mudslides, and popcorn, and Fushigi Yugi! (Eh, kitty? That SO sounds like a plan....)

Ok, I've rambled, and pretty much almost insulted anyone chancing to read this. I think it's time for bed.
*huggies*

PS I still feel crappy, but better than before thanks to a card from the Dancer lady.*poke* Thanks lady.....