Stage 2: Anger
Aug. 2nd, 2004 11:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyOh yeah, I'm angry.
Went from serious "down in the dumps" to "pissed off."
I really process things in my sleep. I didn't realize how angry I was until I started thinking in the shower.
it's leaking, to others. I'm trying not to be angry at everyone, but it's not easy. I'm probably avoiding people for a bit, so I don't snap in the wrong direction.
I mean I know it's not rational for thinking about someone and thinking "They suck since they don't know what's going on and won't get involved!" I have two sides, rational and irrational. Just because I vocalize the irrational, doesn't mean the rational doesn't rule in the end. I know it isn't rational how I'm feeling, I'm trying to work through it. And at the anger stage, it has to be alone.
I'm driving to the Cape today, eventually. I'm going to call her first just to make sure she's there. I'm hoping her silly husband has gone golfing, so she can actually get some work done.
I've just pulled a Bender - from the episode where he flushes Nibbler down the toilet, and they put a chip in him to make him feel what Leela feels? I just made myself feel bad. I really should just get to work. Happy I'm not seeing the perky client til alter this week. Maybe I can handle them then.
I miss Lou.
Went from serious "down in the dumps" to "pissed off."
I really process things in my sleep. I didn't realize how angry I was until I started thinking in the shower.
it's leaking, to others. I'm trying not to be angry at everyone, but it's not easy. I'm probably avoiding people for a bit, so I don't snap in the wrong direction.
I mean I know it's not rational for thinking about someone and thinking "They suck since they don't know what's going on and won't get involved!" I have two sides, rational and irrational. Just because I vocalize the irrational, doesn't mean the rational doesn't rule in the end. I know it isn't rational how I'm feeling, I'm trying to work through it. And at the anger stage, it has to be alone.
I'm driving to the Cape today, eventually. I'm going to call her first just to make sure she's there. I'm hoping her silly husband has gone golfing, so she can actually get some work done.
I've just pulled a Bender - from the episode where he flushes Nibbler down the toilet, and they put a chip in him to make him feel what Leela feels? I just made myself feel bad. I really should just get to work. Happy I'm not seeing the perky client til alter this week. Maybe I can handle them then.
I miss Lou.
