Night night

I'm too tired to do anything else tonight on the room. I had to clean off my bed to make it, since I didn't make it all weekend. I wanted to not put anything dirty on the clean sheets, but now I'll have no choice. STILL having issues with the way the room is working out. STILL think it's the desk, AND now the bookcase. I just can't get easily to the window, plus the mirror is now in the way of airflow.

I'm very tired, but considering a run to 7E for a snack and a soda. I left my car out front, so I have to go out and do something.

I can so see the potential in this room, and I'm very excited about it. I'm thinking about sending a bit LESS to my dentist's office, since they messed up the calculation ANYWAY, and they wrote down my credit card number but won't actually be able to DO anything with it. So I'll mail them a check this week, for less money, pay some other bills, and put aside some money for the Cruxshadows shows in the next couple of weeks. I also need to start envelopes to be able to pay some people back.

Tomorrow I want to start listing some things on my sale journal. Clothes and T-Shirts, and CDs, and probably eventually some VHS tapes. The new room setup facilitates my ability to take piccies without Teh Unit getting in the way.

Anyway, if I want to see some InuYasha, I have to go soon. Hmmm, soda.

I'm getting a sinking feeling

that the world is going to screw me no matter what.

( Ramble Ramble. I think I'm going to cut this, it's a bit much. )

Repeat after me

- I do NOT need anything else new
- I do NOT need anything else new
- I do NOT need anything else new
- I do NOT need anything else new

*sighs* I'm just having issues. But I need to find places for things so I can get rid of them. And make them fit into my world. Like I want to keep a jewelry box, but it's a very pussy color. And I only usually use it for earrings, not necklaces, but it's been mine for a LONG time and I want to keep it. I'm hoping to paint and redecorate it. But it can't be done NOW.

Feh I keep changing my mind. I found a desk on Craig's list for $30 I like, and it's brand new in box. But can I make it work? Will it be worth it? Maybe I should just play this way for a while.

And I can't shake the need for other stuff. But I'm waiting to go out til after traffic. And I'm forcing myself to work on the room in the meantime.

*looks around* I really want this to be done now, please.

Ugh

I own a lot of crap.
And most of it is dirty,
(Dirty as in a "Ick this is all dusty and covered in dirt." as opposed to "Well, I think I need a blowup doll and a strap on for this one.")

I'm also unclear where I got all these candles. I also don't know where my GOOD candles are. I have a Party Light candle I wanted to put on a bookcase, and I haven't found it yet. Never mind I found it, and a nice candle holder to go under it. I do have another milkcrate to go through. And maybe I don't need my filing shelves, the milkcrates will be empty, and I can put my files into it, right under my desk.

And I'm procrastinating. I know. I'm going.

I just realized

That the XMas tree shop might have what I'd been looking for.
Storage basket wise.
Now, what do I do about it? Do I jet out to Ocean State and Building 19?
Or do I go to the Xmas Tree?
They're not quite in the same directions. and I have a window, til closing time.
Plus I need something else to eat - the Big Mac didn't do it for more than a couple of hours. Now I'm craving steak.

Things are kinda falling into place, room wise. I'm pulling things in, and finding stuff that needs to go. It's pretty much taking up a whole bookcase. Which is good, that way it's at hand for when I have time to put things up. I really want to start taking pics of things, but I think that needs to wait until after I get everything pulled back in and places found.

Eh, I think I'm going to continue pulling stuff in, then discuss going out.

Status: Quo

I know I've been pretty self absorbed lately.
it's because I don't want to talk to anyone, pretty much.
I can't even find it in me to pick up the phone to say "hey how's it going."
I'm just not - good.
Tonight I went through HUGE mood swings.
I snapped at M.
I almost cried when I got home to see I'd missed my pet by 5 fricking minutes.
Then I ate and things weren't all that bad.
So I guess it was need of food.
But still, it's overall. I can't shake it right now.
It SHOULD change once teh Unit gets back and I want OUT of the house.
And everything is back in my room. I intend on sitting on my ass at some point.

Right now I'm hot and annoyed and I have to work tomorrow. And I think that's where the issue lies - I HATE THIS GUY and I can't get away from him yet. I promised him that I'd finish this project. And I DON'T want to. *sighs*

I think I'm going to go to bed early. Well early for me. After InuYasha. I need to clean some of the other rooms.

I have cookies, I think I'm going to have some.

OH - and BTW - own up if you've put me on your Crush Meme list. I know there's me (to see how it worked) and my Pet (He had BETTER have *grins*) and I'm pretty sure I know one other, but the number is now up to Five, so I don't get it. Don't MAKE me pay the $2.50, because I might. Then I will taunt you relentlessly. I won't if you own up.

Anyway, hot, bed now.